Where art thou?

There are still days in my life that I say "You should be here".

My pain, my anxiety, my frustration, my triumph, my happiness...you understand them all too well and you were both very good at it. Never once did you leave me in all my troubles and my happy times, you were always there to give me words of motivation, support, love and that makes today difficult. I accepted your 'departure' but today I was looking for you for I missed your comfort...you were no where to be found. I missed your voices, your smell, your warm hands, your warm hugs, most of all your laughter...all that remain is just beautiful memories but I want more and I know thats not possible and yet I still insist. Its so hard to forget someone who gave me so much to remember.

I curled in bed under the warm duvet for it is raining outside...I'm cold still...the warmth of your presence is what I crave and that is what I cannot have...anymore. Sometimes I wish you were here so I could tell you how much I need you and how hard everyday has been without you. Nonetheless I will always have this piece of my heart that smiles whenever I think about you.

Dear Mom & Dad, because of you, I am what I am today. Thank you ❤️.